I promised to myself not to make a new blog entry, before something really good happened. That needed a little wait, now didn’t it? Anyways, there was plenty of things happening, not all of them good, I may add. But you cannot expect life to be just easy and pink as a soap bubble. I will make it all around.
I took my driving test. And if I ever have said `the day I get driving license is the day you get hit on the road`, well, look at that, that day would have come. I passed it. Smile on my face was for the rest of the days till now. I was greeted by the examiner `just don’t do what you did the last time` and I managed. He stopped me after the exam, asked me why I need that license, explained me some flaws I did while on a bike, but at the very end – I got it. Now I can cross one thing from my `to do before I die` list and, as someone greeted me after I passed my test `now you can kill yourself`. Not sure if I’m going to do that though. The list is still pretty long.
Of course, as always, everything just simply can’t go right in my life. Just a day before my driving test, I got an e-mail from my school. It simply stated that I don’t have enough credits to graduate. This causes – I cannot defend my thesis on the ordinary time. It’s not a problem, they added, I just need to take an additional course, pass it and then I could defend my thesis. Wow, that almost doesn’t suck, does it? Of course it wouldn’t be that much of a trouble, if a year I didn’t ask precisely how many credits do I need in order to have enough and I brought the exact that amount from my exchange. So apparently, the situation is changed, and who knows, I may just be this `unlucky student` who got involved in this disappointing situation. Nothing is certain yet, so I am still hoping for the best, but from my experience and from everything else, I learned while trying to find information supporting my side of the story, something tells me they just tell me `sorry` and I will still have to go back and take courses before I could graduate. Great, that is just great.
Another unfortunate thing happened the same day later. I only wanted to go to my dentist for a quick prophylactic scan. I left my work early, I rushed for the train, I even got into a discussion with a guy with no manners and a little kid at the counter, rushed to the dentist and then got `oh, I’m sorry, the doctor isn’t here`. And I know, it’s not on purpose, but she is going on vacation after and then I leave and at the very end – I am not going to be able to get checked. The only promising thing in this case – I am going to the country that does have a pretty good medical infrastructure.
I’m still counting the days, though. 19 more days and I am out of here. The farthest point I have ever been. The first time I will actually go under the equator. And so really really under the equator. I already got in touch with my host family and it looks like a real fortune. I’m sure it’s going to be great experience and I’m sure we will have a lot of good time there.
All the rest was more or less the same. We went for a perfect weekend with perfect people to the perfect place, we repeated the similar experience in another place with almost the same people and obviously the same perfection. It’s going well. Once again, summer is kicking in. too bad the days of summer is counted already.
Off topic
Shhhh… don’t forget. For a smile we can share the night. Do I see you smiling?
There is always something, isn’t it? Smaller or bigger, more meaningful or less. It’s never just like in the dream, where you know you will wake up and when you know it’s not real and you know it will be over and there will be no hurt feeling. Yeah. Back in love – pink glasses back in style. Sweet psycho.
It’s such an obvious and easy true, but it took me a while to get it – promises mean everything. But after they are broken, sorry means nothing. Don’t repeat the `I’m sorry`, better just don’t break any.
It’s amazing. I know this is exactly how it is. And for me to understand it – I need to say it out loud. And I start to believe it. Too bad, only for that particular moment. I’ll get to that, won’t I?
You know, you say `psycho` like it’s a bad thing.
When you are at the end of the world. At that same old casino. When you sit at the poker table and you place your highest bet – your heart. Are you doubting? At least for a second, for one tiny moment of the second – do you regret it? And if you loose – do you smile? Cause when you think about it, there’s nothing more to loose anymore. Maybe not the worst possible scenario after all. It’s the same old casino at the end of the world, after all.
.Thanks for loving me. Because you do it perfectly.
Romeo, let’s run away. Now. In the middle of the rainy night. We still can chase the stars tomorrow.
Off off topic: Now I get it. My happiness is your price.
They may deny it, you may try to find millions of explanations, it may be taken as a false judgment, but fact is clear as a drop of tear: if he really loves you, he will let you wear a white dress.
Yes, I know and I agree, I have made mistakes. But it’s not really fair to expect anything much else from me – my life didn’t come with instructions. Did yours? But no, I don’t need a copy of it, I am perfectly capable of messing it up myself.
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