12 Jan 2015

°Reckless future truth°

I had another weirdly real and exceptionally detailed dream last night. And I wanted to write it down, as many of those details as I could possibly remember, but just as all of the other dreams, half of it faded away by the time I opened my first eye. I probably don't even have to tell you what happened when I opened my second eye. By the time I was awake enough to grab a pen and my notebook, I only could write a few sentences. A paragraph at best. The storm have faded and so did my dream.

Can't help but feel a little disappointed. 

Once again, I cannot stop listening to this song:

It gives me chills. It saddens me instantly. Sounds so familiar yet so distant.

°Setting fire to our insides for fun
Collecting names of the lover that went wrong
The lovers that went wrong°

I guess I should consider myself a lucky one. Because you caused. It has always been you.

°To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I'm forever missing him°


I am going to walk the Camino de Santiago. Already got one-way ticket to the place. Hopefully there is no turning back. Maybe this time I will literally walk it out. Finally.

Off topic

It may have been a big mistake or the best decision of my life. And I might never know which one it is. But I feel like this time I am not only older, I may have become a little wiser as well. It is time to pay my respects. It is time give back what isn't mine anymore.

7 Jan 2015

°New Years. New Challenges. New Sounds°

I had to take a second look at the last post's date. Has it really been that long? Turns out after finishing my long lasting studies I have been trying to escape online life. And just enjoy the outside. Which worked quite well and the time I had was nice and simple.

I took off three times in a mean time. Once - Italy, little bit of Rome, Florence and Pisa, then Lithuania - having my little Christmas with my mom, a little shopping, few beers in B.O., running here and there trying to squeeze all of my friends for at least a little meeting. The last take off was pretty recent one and very much waited for. It was The arctic circle - Tromso.

I have wanted to go there for as long as I knew about it, about aurora borealis and lots of snow. And this time I made it happen. We had it all - we had a very warm welcome, we had a fantastic Christmas dinner, we had snowstorms and I have finally enjoyed the really white white Christmas, we did dog sledge riding, we saw killer whales going up and down for herring, we even had an amazing company for New Years celebration that I at least ended at 5a.m.

It's been a very good and promising beginning of the year. Hopefully the year will be just as good. Lots of adventures, lots of travelling, promising job and many many joyful occasions to smile until it hurts.

And many more `things to do before I die` to be crossed off the list.