There I am again. As a complete expert of screwing things up, I screwed it up good.
I don't even know what the hell is wrong with me. Do I know the reason? No. Maybe I just wanted to prove something to myself. But hell, after all these years you'd think I would be wiser. Turns out no. I am still the same ugly duckling who goes through life and with the help of chaos makes mess everywhere I put my foot on.
Unbelievable. This time I cannot blame it on you world. You had nothing to do with that. It was all me. Damn, sometimes I wish someone would slap me awake and tell me I am doing the biggest mistake in life which I will regret. For the rest of my life.
No excuse. I just have to face the reality and hope she will not spit to my face. Or in my drink.
From all the people I could have hurt, why did I have to choose you?
I guess I am more of a drama queen than I liked to think.
On top of that I wasn't able to eat today at all. I guess it's a good thing for my goal not to become fat.
I have to survive this. Not sure how that will happen, but I have to at least give it a try.
Barcelona, help me out here.