°My empire of dirt°

And here I am again, in the casino at the end of the world. Left out, still not being able to make out of what I have done wrong. Just like that – left out. No explanation, no conversation. Just a spinning silence.

And now I am not sure which table to go to. I toss a coin for the answer and it just caught hanging in the air.

I really don’t know.

°°I hurt myself today

To see if I still feel

I focus on the pain

The only thing that’s real°°

I haven’t done anything wrong, have I? I was honest. I was just trying to be honest. And to maybe fix it up afterwards.

I am not a great person. But I am not a horrible one either.

I was just trying to meet you half way. That is not too little. Or is it?

°°What have I become

My sweetest friend

Everyone I know goes away

In the end°°

And you keep asking me why it is so hard for me to trust people.

And I always respond to you with why is it so hard to keep promises.

°°Beneath the stains of time

The feelings disappear

You are someone else

I am still right here°°

I bought a new computer and a tablet yesterday. Just when I was making purchases, I felt this urge to share news with you. And then I realized – I can’t. And I even don’t know why.

°°If I could start again

A million miles away

I would keep myself

I would find a way°°