Sometimes it is not enough just to make a promise to
yourself. Sometimes you need to say it. Out loud. To a friend, or a lover, even
facebook or someone you will never meet.
I started on `A clockwork orange`. It’s going slow [not
as slow as my damn thesis though], but it’s going. It does remind me a little
of the scenes from the movie. It’s strange reading a book and having already
all the characters with faces. I was used to make faces on my own.
Anyways, not so much, but not so little happened in the
past two weeks.
First important thing – I moved from Norrebro [and away
from all those adorable Arabic shops] to Amager, another immigrant’s kind of
area of the city. I have my own room. Not too big, not too small, not so much
stuff in it, but I like it here so far. Window can be opened, kitchen seems
alright, there is a big size shower. What else a girl could want, right?
Once I moved from Norrebro, I got my bike back. So now my
baby is called `Centurion Discovery` and has a more decent chain to lock and
hopefully is not going to be stolen from me. It needs to get fixed again
though. My back bracket managed to loosen up. It’s Sunday today, so I hope it
will not crash before Monday when I actually could bring it to the shop. My kind of last day in Norrebro was going
around those Arabic adorable shops and buying full back-pack of vegetables and
fruits and other stuff. It’s nothing like that on my side of the city. There are
not so many or with such good deals sales in here. I think I may need to go
back to Norrebro from time to time.
I also in the mean time got paid. Money flew so fast, you
could hardly imagine. Of course, there were a lot of things – paying debts,
deposit and rent. I finally managed to buy an external hard disc and my
flat-mate is trying to get my photos from my old hdd [keeping my fingers
crossed and hopes high up]. Now it’s time to save money for my new baby –
camera. I already know which camera I want/need. I just need to wait for heads
up from a friend who is currently in a second-hand paradise for technique and
then.. I will hopefully hold it back in my hands again. One colleague asked me
why she never saw me taking pictures, if I like photography so much. I told her
it was stolen and her question back was so innocently naïve `why?` I don’t
really know why. I don’t know if I care anymore.
Last weekend was full of surprises and things happening
and.. Well, I can only say I definitely did not need that much of it. But you
can’t escape it all, now can you?
It started innocently enough – I was man and angry and
working closing shift on Wednesday. I was ready to leave and just go home, but
after Michael told me he was going to Sam’s bar to meet some friend and for one
beer only, I just couldn’t say no. So I went. I found a new friend, still don’t
know why she liked me and bought me shots and all that. She even found me
yesterday in the Dubliner and wanted to hang out. So after 2.5 beers I left
Michael with his friends [one beer my a..] and went home. I needed some sleep
or some work to do. Tursday. Ieva came in on Thursday and we met at Monika’s
place. Of course, as always, Ieva met some guy on the train and thought about
maybe going to the city for a beer or so. I had to work Friday at 7a.m. and she
was tired in general, so we made a deal – one drink. Just one drink. Yeah, one
drink my a.. I had two and went to sleep. She stayed up till 4a.m. Anyways, I had
kind of an awfully busy Friday. I worked in the conference center till 15.45. I
ran to the Dubs and started there at 16. I worked till maybe 21.30, had a quick
meal and went to the BS to meet Monika and some others. Beer was kicking in a
bit faster than you would expect [I blame lack of sleep, long working hours,
not too much food, emotional status and all that] and before I knew it, I was
back in the Dubliner where Ieva was done with her shift and some others. On my
way back I fell off my bike [this time I blame Mark, who insisted on escorting
me home and was going too damn close to me with his bike]. Saturday I worked
most of the day and then we stayed with Ieva for our pints in Dubliner. And
that was a fantastic night. Seriously, it was so great, I miss that. My other
Ieva and Evija was also there, as was Spruty and a 17 year old, who came with
Gus. He just came to Denmark that day, so he knew no one there, so we started
talking with him. He was real fun. We talked, we gossiped a little, we laughed,
we danced [well, okey it was my and Ieva who danced]. Anyways, it was a
fantastic night, once again, but then it was time for basketball, so we left
everyone back in there and I went to sleep. In the morning we met with Ieva for
breakfast and goodbyes. I had a very easy day at home, recovering kind of and
then at night – I went to work.
Next Tuesday it was my other Ieva’s birthday, which she
celebrated a bit in the Dubs and I had to work. All fun and games.
All the rest of the week was kind of slow and easy. I did
not do much, I just was trying to find a way to kick myself to start working on
my thesis seriously. Tomorrow, maybe?
Alright, another promise here and now – Thesis. Work hard
and as soon as I have time [since I do not have my schedule for next week just
yet].
Off topic
I have no idea where I am getting myself into, but it may
be bad. Not for me, but for that other person. Is it worth it? Probably not.
Would that be a mistake – probably. Somehow I still feel I may actually do that
mistake.
Emotional chaos started wildly, but is under control now.
I thought [maybe too much], I analyzed, I tried to find answers. I may have
found them. Even if they are not correct, that’s the best I could get. Well, I need
to do something about it, if you refuse to give me answers.
It’s amazing. But this chaos will help me to answer
another question as well. I just need to be patient and wait for it. It’s
almost exciting.
As for new old/good/deep/shallow sounds.. I cannot stop
listening to this:
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