In the past 45 days,
sadly enough, not much different happened. I start to feel like I am trapped in
my own weird net and cannot get out. Cannot or will not – I have not decided
which one is the real one. Probably the second one, since, as we all know,
everything is possible. Not that we always try hard enough for that.
I can sum up those
past days in a few events: Imagine dragons concert, Thanks giving dinner
[preparation and participation], Placebo concert, planning my first so far
[hopefully] trip to the Middle East, visit from a friend, climbing the tower of
the Christianhavn church, crossing a few names from my friends list, working
and pretending to be trying to work on my thesis.
Did I forget
something?
I finally got an
answer from my old crashed hdd. No pictures. No more pictures to remind me of all
those things I have done and felt very, very much alive. I managed to gather
some of the pictures from my friends, who responded to my messages in almost no
time. Made me smile and feel happy. It’s a good feeling when you realize that
you still actually have friends. Who will help you in bad and good. Who will
hold your hand when all you want is to run away.
Not all of them of
course. Some of them will just ditch you in the middle of the night in a
overcrowded pub with some stranger you just met, right after they tell you that
you really have to come and that’s what friends do.
One chance. You always
get only one chance to f**k it up. Well, some people already used theirs. How are
you holding on?
I learned my lesson
once again – don’t get too attached, don’t get too close, don’t get too
involved.
Christmas is coming
and I don’t feel it. Yes, true, I decided to cancel Christmas this year, pack a
back-pack and go on the road. Just like that. Just me and Steffany [if she
promises not to pack too many high-heels]. But there is still no snow [here,
paradoxically there is snow in the place where I am going, even though it
usually does not snow there], so there is still no Christmas. And not even
Christmas spirit.
Does that mean I am
getting old?
Off Topic
Still got it. Still
doing it. Still.
